6/10/2012

Intentions.. June-a-thon poem

Intenciones

Intento a entender el entendimiento de mi Corazón,
pero ella no tiene ningún razón.
Ella intenta a llevarme a un lado
cuando ya estoy al otro
pero sus intenciones me engañan,
cuando ella me grita tantas veces
las mismas cosas,
que ya yo sé,
pero las que no quiero querer.
Yo le pregunto,
Qué es su intención, chica mía?
y ella no tiene ninguna respuesta para mi,
salvo este
“ no sé ”

Direct English translation just doesn't sound as nice, so this is an interpretation of the poem in English, slightly different, but still true to the meaning. I originally wrote it in Spanish, and still like it better in Spanish.

Intentions

I attempt to understand the reasoning of my Heart,
but she makes no sense.
She tries to pull me to one side,
when I am already at the other,
but her intentions trick me,
when so many times she cries to me,
repeating the same things,
that I already know,
but don’t want to want.
I ask her,
What is your intention, little heart of mine?
and she has no answer for me,
except this
“ I don’t know ”

If your intentions were truly sincere, then explain what the fuck that glass of milk is doing here!




Hope you enjoy!!! 

See you soon!
 

6/08/2012

My Fourth Open Mic Night!!!!!


Hello everyone!!

As you all know, I thoroughly enjoy embarrassing myself in public, especially on stage, where people laugh and haggle me and there is a light shining on me that makes me look even whiter (I know, I didn’t know it was possible either!). I had not gone to open mic for the entire month of May, mostly because I was going crazy writing, solemnizing weddings (*wink* at Jenni and Greg - blog post to come), and doing things I didn’t have time to do while I was slaving away with my Master’s work. But, here I am again, safe and sound, and humiliating myself in front of people I don’t know and supportive friends at the good ole Triskel Tavern!
The first arrivals, also these guys liked my rap so, shout out to them and their other friends who showed up 5 or so minutes after the photo was taken!!!
It was actually a really great night, because one of my awesome co-workers Rebecca got up and performed stand up for the first time, and proved to be one of the only stand up comedians that has gone up at open mic to get a real round of applause, and real laughs! 

Then as usual we had fantastic artists like Sally singing improv about bikini waxes and teaching English in Spain. Great musicians like Woody, Rasmus, Taylor and countless others who are just truly amazing, and yours truly ranking close to the bottom of the watering hole. 

Woody - the Head of Open Mic last night!

So without further adieu, here are the two videos, the first one is the spoken word / poem “Pin Up” dedicated to Monika and a rap about my arthritis and constant feeling of being 85 inside, when I am clearly not quite that old, called “Blue and Green Pills”. The second video is a poem called “Vampire Hearts” dedicated to Guillaume and is a poem I wrote on my frantic frenzy of poetry writing last week. I truly hope you all enjoy them and then maybe I can embarrass myself some more in the future! 

Also, the shirt I'm wearing in the video was designed by Guillaume, if you want to check his artwork out his blog is El Gabacho.
This is the T-shirt design, you can't see it very well in the video, but I LOVE IT!!!
I tried to upload the videos to here, but it just wouldn't do it, or maybe it would and I am just an 85 year old lady who knows nothing about technology!!!! lol.

Here are the LINKS!!!!


Fourth Open Mic Night: Pin Up and Blue and Green Pills


Fourth Open Mic Night: Vampire Hearts

THANK YOU to everyone who supports my crazy creative outlet, that I very much need to stay sane, and see you soon!

LOVES!


6/07/2012

June-A-Thon: Dandelion Queen


Here is the poem of the day, this is one of my favorites of the set. 

Hope you enjoy!

Dandelion Queen

My heart beats quickly,
running through the pathways of my veins,
intoxicating each cell with a deadly poison.
Chemicals pollute my brain as it tries to weed through the nonsense,
losing logic as it is eaten by acids,
dripping out of my eyes as dying logic generally does.
Having no other way to escape the emotions
tear filled logic seeps its way down my freckled cheeks,
for they know their imminent death is near,
as the heart reconquers her fortress,
taking back what little is hers.
This time reinforced with false hopes of future fantasies
of a simple yet beautiful life.
She continues on her mission
to destroy all that is in her path,
so as to prove her strength and idiocy.
Her teeth sinking passion evades all other feelings,
and she shall take no prisoners.
The brain is on its own,
as there are no great allies to be made in this bitter battle.
It stands frozen in amazement
at how such a small thing can change everything,
at how something so harmonious and wonderful can be destroyed with one look,
one hug,
one touch of the hand,
one moment - an innocent comment transformed into the worst of interpretations,
allowing the mind to wonder off,
led astray by the heart into a field of confused dandelions,
who know not which way to roam.
Even though the sun is shining behind them,
they twist and turn,
bound only by the soft soil on which they sit,
and being drained of their reason,
they reach out for the sparkle of the moonlight,
they turn away from life,
choosing the death of the passionate heart queen.


And the Heart Queen shall always prevail.

6/06/2012

Toasty Business'


So, this week I have admittedly been on YouTube and Facebook more than this entire year, partly because I am about to go back to the US for the summer, and partly because Grad School is OUT FOR SUMMER (sing with me now), but seriously.  

While roaming around on this vast and never ending website of wonderful things, of terrible things, of great performers and drunk performers, friends, nobody’s, and a crazy assortment of things I quite honestly never thought about before and possibly never want to think about again. 

I came across something called Project Toasty.

Now you may be asking, what is Project Toasty Raelynne? Well, if you don’t already know it is an amazing not for profit organization that promotes people being Creative and Emotionally Healthy at the same time. Founded and created by one girl: Arielle. Which is in itself absolutely amazing. 

So, I decided to get involved and I participated in my first project. However, I am behind on the projects having just discovered this and all the submissions have been submitted already. But I figured what the hell, and I did it anyway - just for me. Which I think is exactly the point Project Toasty is getting at. 

There are tons of different crazy projects, like find the perverted scenes in Disney movies, draw yourself as a cartoon character, take a photo and have people guess where you are, and tons of other awesome fun projects that range from extremely easy, to emotionally challenging, to simply creative!

And now, here is my photo for the "get rid of 100 negative objects" challenge!!

The hardest thing to get rid of was the socks, as you know I had almost 100 pairs of socks, and I seriously need to stop.
I actually found it really hard to find 100 things to get rid of, as I moved to Madrid and did a crazy ran-sacking of all of my stuff before I moved here, and didn't come with many things. But somehow these little negative energy emitters found their way across the Atlantic to haunt me. I threw some other junk away, papers, plastic crap I didn't know what was and things like that- I really didn't feel the need to post those things in the picture, but it was also good to go through them and throw them away.
 
The whole thing was in in response to on of the Project Toasty episodes, which you can find here.

Maybe if you like the thought of this and want to do fun exciting creative things - you can too!

I don’t usually promote things, but I felt so relieved after participating in this activity, I just wanted to share it with all my friends and family. 

I love you guys!

6/05/2012

Second Poem of the June-a-thon!

Here it is as promised!

A second poem for your enjoyment!!!


The Head, the Heart, and the Heathens

I know these are my legs
for they match my freckly arms,
and the skin that mirrors back at me in my reflection,
but how do I know that my heart is mine,
and not a mere stand in for the shattered one of the forgotten years?
Or that my mind is my own,
and not that of someone or something at the other end of the black holes
that suck in everything I see and transport it to uncharted brain matter?
How do I know that I am me,
and not a mere reproduction of someone else,
or a transformed, time broken, newer version of someone I used to be?
How do I know
that I am thinking
and thus can know
I am
when I am not even sure that these thoughts are my own?
With so many contradictions
it’s hard to imagine anything else.
It’s hard to know who to trust
the head
the heart
or the heathens

6/04/2012

I'm BAAAACK!

So, first of all, HELLO EVERYONE! I am alive, as you may have noticed, I disappeared from the blog world for quite awhile. And it was mostly grad school killing my soul and devouring my heart and making my life nearly miserable but my brain explode with information, so in a way it was a great thing!

So to make up for my absence, I will share with you the many things I have been writing the past month since Grad School ended and GAVE ME MY LIFE BACK- well sorta. I will try to post one poem or potential rap a day this month, and hopefully you faithful and lovely people, will forgive me for my absence. :D

I love you all and I have not forgotten you!!!

Here is the first one.

Vampire Hearts


Your perfect teeth have an infectious way of smiling at me,
not the innocent and pure smile of an ignorant 5 year old,
but a wide grin, full of mystery and chosen happiness,
you too have given up on your heart strings,
as they have led you astray,
to empty mornings after passionate filled nights,
to vacant souls who know not how to love, care,
support, appreciate, and surely they lack compassion.
You have chosen me:
a stable, caring, deep love,
that comes from the mind and possibly the soul,
rather than the ignorant heart,
who lights herself on fire at any given moment,
chasing childish dreams of scripted love,
not thinking about the consequences,
the future,
nor the heartbreak that will follow.
After she has devoured her victim,
masticated fully and thoroughly,
only to spit you out
when she becomes hungry again for change,
for excitement,
chasing the rush of new and lost love,
she is a vampire, a zombie, a soulless creature,
feasting on the love of others,
winks and smiles to tempt her,
destroying even her own soul just to capture another’s.
We have chosen to ignore
the inconsistent fluttering of the fleeting heart,
and rather chosen to grow, laugh, and explore together,
to care, love and support one another,
down the crazy paths we shall face in the world as others laugh,
having found their own version of love
to tame their own
vacant hearts.